2011年3月13日星期日

Difference in Definition.

Ok.
Lets get straight to the point.
I understand everyone has their own needs and desire
I meant towards their other halves.
But what I don't get is,
Why make thing so difficult?

I'm through with the overall thinking,
I'm aiming straight at ONE specific person.

Fine. Define the word "protect".
"to defend from trouble, harm, attack, etc."
That is what i got from the dictionary.
Supposed this is what you want me to do,
then fine.
but how am i suppose to defend if there wasn't any trouble, harm, attack, etc?
(yeah if i could do that, who needs superman)

Maybe things wasn't that clear.
I am not your body guard.
and i'm very sure you are capable of protecting yourself.

"forget it"
that's what you said.
I wasn't sure what that meant though
it could mean I don't want to argue anymore,
or it could mean we're finished.

call me a quitter but I sure as well hope it's the latter.

A relationship is like talking.
Wouldn't be fun if just one side speaks and the other doesn't.
Call me selfish but who's going to protect me from getting hurt?
I'm not used to your way of love,
so I'll just call this Difference in Definition.

2011年3月1日星期二

I'm here, I see, but I'm lost.

the long awaited drought i've been sitting in might end.
as rays of hope starting to shine into my life
the path upon enlightened.
I see a way through, where it leads i might not know.

now with everything set and the problem seemed solved,
i felt more lost then ever.

it felt as if a part of me is slowly dying away as i start to embrace the new possible outcome.
perhaps this is not what i want?
but what is?

all this while i've been wanting these to happen
and yet when it arrives, i'm afraid to accept.

sigh. the uneasiness in my stomach.