I'm here, I see, but I'm lost.

the long awaited drought i've been sitting in might end.

as rays of hope starting to shine into my life

the path upon enlightened.

I see a way through, where it leads i might not know.

now with everything set and the problem seemed solved,

i felt more lost then ever.

it felt as if a part of me is slowly dying away as i start to embrace the new possible outcome.

perhaps this is not what i want?

but what is?

all this while i've been wanting these to happen

and yet when it arrives, i'm afraid to accept.

sigh. the uneasiness in my stomach.