First day of the brand new year,
spent 12 hours with some old friends
from sunway to sunway cheras to connought,
it's probably the best new year eve i had this year. =.=
there are still times for me to stop and think through today.
i was looking at a couple and a girl waiting for her boyfriend to return,
listening to a mother that held a good caring heart for her daughter's friend
and me.
Couple was fine.
kinda envy them, cause their love lasted so long,
which i would never imagine will in anyway happen on me.
they had their sweet times, happy times right in front of me
yet i rarely see them quarrel.
and there is this girl
Her boy went to UK and study
for another 5 or 6 years
yet she's waiting for him to return
for now.
and the mom.
wow, she's quite something.
from the way she converse you can see
it's not the knowledge that makes a person successful,
but the way one looks at life.
then me.
kept asking myself today and many days before,
is there any chance i could end up like one of them in the distant future?
perhaps maybe to be at least a little bit like them...
what i got is NO.
could not see the future of me being either of them
cause there haven't been any target(S) ... XD
plus, these are not priorities.
lol
the trip today was quite random
went to some best places in town
spent some money and had great fun.
there's this restaurant i've been wanting to go for quite some time
and i went today, and as usual took SO many photos with them.
the place is called FullHouse.
the environment is great and the food is tasty
it's definitely unforgettable.
then at night we went to another cafe
i didnt knew it existed
but it's quite some place.
it's call Fun Ok cafe,
themed and fabulous service
count down with a firework view from the windows
and i won a bear from the games... lol
thats for the countdown.
love it.
2009年11月23日星期一
23112009
if i were asked to write about myself on a piece of paper,
and to include everything that i like and dislike,
it wont be a book.
it'll just be an empty piece of paper.
i wonder whether if it's a norm
to feel that empty for that long.
for years i've been searching for the purpose of life
it doesn't seem fruitful.
with all the complications around me
through observations and experimentation,
it's safe to say that the world outside is dangerous
it's a fact where it'll never change no matter when.
i wanted to shine
but i'd rather be just average.
and to include everything that i like and dislike,
it wont be a book.
it'll just be an empty piece of paper.
i wonder whether if it's a norm
to feel that empty for that long.
for years i've been searching for the purpose of life
it doesn't seem fruitful.
with all the complications around me
through observations and experimentation,
it's safe to say that the world outside is dangerous
it's a fact where it'll never change no matter when.
i wanted to shine
but i'd rather be just average.
2009年11月8日星期日
08112009
decided to reopen my blog.
though nothing much was posted here,
hope it will be something in the future.
these are parts of memories that i wish it could fade away
1.
the thoughts of finding a partner came back.
i can lie to myself saying that being single is much more better
but the feeling wont go away.
it's very hard to see others getting into relationships
while you stayed single for such a long time.
i dont understand why i still could not get over the fear of giving trust
or why i could not open up myself to others.
i've been limiting myself since a long time ago,
and punishing myself for no particular reasons.
my requirements are getting higher and higher
but my condition is deteriorating
i asked too much from others without looking back at myself.
that is why i could not find and will not find one that i will "love"
2.
another thing i've been avoiding
something much more deeper then affection.
the good thing about my course is
we can do introspection.
i can see the interest slipping through my fingers
as time pass by.
it's as if life is slipping away from my body
leaving it empty and hollow.
i've been avoiding too much
to the extend that, i blocked out everything.
the emptiness to me, is quite scary.
since i could not unclog the clog,
it stays.
3.
there's a set of my own principle i lived with.
it's a set of rules that i made up in my mind
and i tried my best to go with it.
i believed in justice, fair and equality.
i believed in karma.
i try not to judge, not to discriminate, not to stereotype others.
i try not to take sides
and be neutral.
but it doesnt take long for me to realize
that life is not as naive as it is.
as one grows you'll notice that the hardest thing to do
is to stay on neutral grounds.
you tend to take sides, judge, discriminate, gossip about things.
so here comes the dilemma.
to give in and go against my will,
or to stand firm on my own grounds?
easier said than done, if you knew what im going through.
though nothing much was posted here,
hope it will be something in the future.
these are parts of memories that i wish it could fade away
1.
the thoughts of finding a partner came back.
i can lie to myself saying that being single is much more better
but the feeling wont go away.
it's very hard to see others getting into relationships
while you stayed single for such a long time.
i dont understand why i still could not get over the fear of giving trust
or why i could not open up myself to others.
i've been limiting myself since a long time ago,
and punishing myself for no particular reasons.
my requirements are getting higher and higher
but my condition is deteriorating
i asked too much from others without looking back at myself.
that is why i could not find and will not find one that i will "love"
2.
another thing i've been avoiding
something much more deeper then affection.
the good thing about my course is
we can do introspection.
i can see the interest slipping through my fingers
as time pass by.
it's as if life is slipping away from my body
leaving it empty and hollow.
i've been avoiding too much
to the extend that, i blocked out everything.
the emptiness to me, is quite scary.
since i could not unclog the clog,
it stays.
3.
there's a set of my own principle i lived with.
it's a set of rules that i made up in my mind
and i tried my best to go with it.
i believed in justice, fair and equality.
i believed in karma.
i try not to judge, not to discriminate, not to stereotype others.
i try not to take sides
and be neutral.
but it doesnt take long for me to realize
that life is not as naive as it is.
as one grows you'll notice that the hardest thing to do
is to stay on neutral grounds.
you tend to take sides, judge, discriminate, gossip about things.
so here comes the dilemma.
to give in and go against my will,
or to stand firm on my own grounds?
easier said than done, if you knew what im going through.
2009年5月24日星期日
2009年5月12日星期二
2009年5月5日星期二
06052009
这些没有电脑的日子还蛮辛苦的
一直都在家里呆
考试应该当了一科拉
现在其实准备着下一科
时间剩下1小时15分
好像都读不进去了。
最近才发觉
自己蛮缺钱用的。
零用剩下300多
要到月尾。
钱用在哪里也不清楚
只知道电话费占了150。
天啊。
下学期他们都不在了
基本上剩下我一个人在这里。
也想不到能做什么了
时间表也没有定
其实很想打工的
赚些外快至于消磨时间一下。
下个学期也应该蛮坎坷的
都怪我读书不好
真得很怕当掉
而且最近都一直生病的
下个学期应该会拿多一科，好像7科了。
哎。
刚刚在家里发现了一些事情
东西放在那边
好奇心一定会去看看的嘛
还真地给我看到一些东西。XD
我的坏心眼，现在在心里爽歪歪了。
哈哈
这些感情的东西，还真不能长久。。。^^
当然，我不希望我的会这样。
呵呵
其实真地发现你很可爱的
我很少听见别人会为了今天赚18块而开心
也明白的啦
你也蛮辛苦的。
才放学就要去做工了
听说还要在那边冲凉。。。=.=
每天都累累，觉得你好辛苦哦。
还有几天我们就1个月咯！
^^
还真的很喜欢很喜欢听到你的笑声
还有看见你的笑容
么么~
-end-
一直都在家里呆
考试应该当了一科拉
现在其实准备着下一科
时间剩下1小时15分
好像都读不进去了。
最近才发觉
自己蛮缺钱用的。
零用剩下300多
要到月尾。
钱用在哪里也不清楚
只知道电话费占了150。
天啊。
下学期他们都不在了
基本上剩下我一个人在这里。
也想不到能做什么了
时间表也没有定
其实很想打工的
赚些外快至于消磨时间一下。
下个学期也应该蛮坎坷的
都怪我读书不好
真得很怕当掉
而且最近都一直生病的
下个学期应该会拿多一科，好像7科了。
哎。
刚刚在家里发现了一些事情
东西放在那边
好奇心一定会去看看的嘛
还真地给我看到一些东西。XD
我的坏心眼，现在在心里爽歪歪了。
哈哈
这些感情的东西，还真不能长久。。。^^
当然，我不希望我的会这样。
呵呵
其实真地发现你很可爱的
我很少听见别人会为了今天赚18块而开心
也明白的啦
你也蛮辛苦的。
才放学就要去做工了
听说还要在那边冲凉。。。=.=
每天都累累，觉得你好辛苦哦。
还有几天我们就1个月咯！
^^
还真的很喜欢很喜欢听到你的笑声
还有看见你的笑容
么么~
-end-
2009年5月1日星期五
01052009
都有一段时间没有上来了
电脑坏掉了
又忙考试的。
似乎身边有很多很多东西都在发生
我却不知道
今天跟他聊了真的好久的电话
找到一些很久不见的回忆
当话说到喉咙的时候
停住了。
我没有说出我梦想的原因。
年少轻狂的梦想真的很伟大
曾经以为自己真的能够把天上的星星都摘下来。
到了稍微成熟一些
才慢慢发现在追求梦的途中
自己偏远了本来该走的路
只因为当初的热忱都不见了
眼前只有心里面告诉自己
有些东西真的不能够勉强
不能就是不能了。
我的依赖，
真正能够靠多久？
曾经让我相信这个世界能够给我快乐的原因
似乎已不见了好久
那个纯纯的回忆
让我后悔了这么久的时间
短短2个月
足以证明相信奇迹的危险。
要开始准备下一次的考试咯！
电话费。。。又来了。。。
电脑又当机了。。。
哎。
我这种日子真的想skip着过。。。
-end-
电脑坏掉了
又忙考试的。
似乎身边有很多很多东西都在发生
我却不知道
今天跟他聊了真的好久的电话
找到一些很久不见的回忆
当话说到喉咙的时候
停住了。
我没有说出我梦想的原因。
年少轻狂的梦想真的很伟大
曾经以为自己真的能够把天上的星星都摘下来。
到了稍微成熟一些
才慢慢发现在追求梦的途中
自己偏远了本来该走的路
只因为当初的热忱都不见了
眼前只有心里面告诉自己
有些东西真的不能够勉强
不能就是不能了。
我的依赖，
真正能够靠多久？
曾经让我相信这个世界能够给我快乐的原因
似乎已不见了好久
那个纯纯的回忆
让我后悔了这么久的时间
短短2个月
足以证明相信奇迹的危险。
要开始准备下一次的考试咯！
电话费。。。又来了。。。
电脑又当机了。。。
哎。
我这种日子真的想skip着过。。。
-end-
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